i NEVER TH0UGHT i C0ULD . . .

L0VE Y0U

THE WAY i D0 .

i`m feeling kinda...

i don`t know wheither or not i should be madd or if i shouldn`t. there`s just soo much shyt running through mah head. lately i`ve been thinkn that i need to be more careful about who are TRULY my friends, and who are my associates. i`ve been trusting a lot of people lately & i`ve been backstabbed many times. what`s fucked up in mah head is...i have this "FRIEND" right? and before that "FRIEND" complained to me about being close wit one of my guys...so like a good friend that i was..i chose to back off & not talk to him as much, which i feel in my part i fucked up. and so i did it right? and what do i get back? NOTHING. i get back a bunch of BULLSHIT !!! why? cuhs, in my part i would not get soooo damn close to one of my supposable "BEST FRIENDS" ex man..especially thro everything that happened. at first i was skeptical about it & didnt care. but now it jus bugs me a lil why? cuhs i kno that my supposable "FRIEND" is lying to me. i know it! u can`t deny it because i am not the only one who believes this. the way things are, is jus soo fucked up. i hate it.  and NO, i dont like him anymore...but if yall knew the whole story...u guys would get me, but i`ve chosen to let only some of it out..

today was a sad day, not just for me but for other people that i know as well.

  this is to someone...(you know who you are)

 Don`t you just hate when your friends with someone & then others automatically assume that something is going between the two of you? well yeaah. that`s what i`m going through right now. i supposably have these "good friends" of mine, but then they sit there & talk shyt behind my back thinking i`ve been hiding something & in reality im not. i hate when people believe all these damn rumors going around that aren`t freakn` true. now a days you can`t be friends with anyone because they think shyt. i would think that when your "best friends" with someone they would trust & believe you and not just what the other people are saying who in reality dont know the real truth behind whats going on. if i didn`t tell you anything, you would think that there is nothing goin on between us because of the fact me&him are just friends. just like how you got REAL close to someone i liked. it`s the same thing that`s happening but at least i spoke up to you about how i felt & you didn`t, you just spoke up to other people & they don`t even know the REAL TRUTH. I thought you would believe in me, especially because we tell each other everything and i would think that our friendship was stronger than this. but i guess i was wrong. i was wrong about everything...& now i`ve learned something from this..

"It took me many years to realize that the only person that can make you happy is yourself. Nobody needs nobody but themselves. You were born alone, you die alone, and you stand alone."